Change is Coming

Like my new blog look? I worked most of the evening on it. Not sure if it will stay, but it's a start.
I've come to the horribly sad realization that I need to make a major change in my life. Denial is a word I am very familiar with.....I knew that the scales were creeping up instead of down. I knew that I wasn't really watching what I was eating. I knew that my clothes were getting tighter and tighter by the minute. I just kept avoiding the mirror, eating more and more, and shoving those realizations further and further back in my mind. Wanna know what my 'wake-up call' was? I saw a picture of myself and my children and it had a great (disgusting) side view. I nearly cried....it's awful. Something has to change. I know it, I won't deny it anymore. I'm planning on starting a boot camp after the first of the year. I'm also planning to start eating better. Here's where my weakness is. I'm an emotional eater. I eat when I'm happy, I eat when I'm sad, I eat when I'm bored. I eat, just to eat. It totally sucks. I also have a hard time working out. I'm exhausted when I get home and I don't have the motivation to get up early (hear that denial???). However, the class I'm looking into will be in the evenings. I've already worked it out with Daddy Dearest to make sure it's something that can be worked out. I'm going to try to find a sitter to come over on the nights when he's gone, just to make sure I can get there. It's for a month and I am going to start at 3 nights a week. I can do anything 12 times, right?
My point for posting this is to hold me somewhat accountable. So if you know me and you see me, please encourage me! I need all the help I can get! It's pretty sad when a video game (Wii Fit) says your obese and your Mii is fat...ugh!
I promise to post Christmas pictures and stories later....Sweet Pea seems to be recovering quite well, thank goodness!